August 11, 2015

voice lessons.

There's something liberating about the knowledge that very few people will be reading Hello Hive now that I've allowed the custom domain address expire. I need the added space to process some of the things that God is working in me. It's so much easier to- well, be myself, when I'm truly just writing for myself.
It was true when I said that I felt like blogging again. I still do. What's surprising is how easy it is to slide into a mode where this thing I enjoy so much turns into a burden because I'm doing it to please other people.
(By the way, goodness- all the comments from Disqus are gone, too?! I bet that could be easily remedied. But I'm considering leaving that as it is. It suits the peace and quiet that I'm going for. Why don't I just turn off all comments going forward, while I'm at it? Gee whiz.)

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I'm chewing on some ideas for a totally rebranded site. Back in May, I had hinted that the original idea for Hello Hive wasn't really fitting with my real life. But I don't want to rush into a change, especially if it will keep me from actually writing. Which is the real point, anyway- isn't it?
I'd love to hash out some of my ideas for a new blog direction, and I will a little bit at a time. But for now, I just want to write and process and think about the real reasons why I'm addicted to blogging.
I know it's not because I want to be internet famous. The more I think about it, the more I am really uncomfortable with the idea of being known by so many people. I'm an introvert, through and through. Maybe this aversion to being known is the reason I have a stop-start love-hate relationship with social media anyway!?
Therefore, going forward, I want to just write what's really on my heart. In so doing, maybe I can find my true self and figure out what God wants me to be doing with my time. My identity is in HIM ALONE, and no brand that I can create to hide myself in. This should be a fun practice. Consider this post the first of many voice lessons to come!

July 28, 2015

heads up!

I just wanted to drop in and give ya'll a heads up that Hello Hive will be changing domain names in the near future. More on that here. In the meantime, the best way for you all to stay in touch is by Instagram. That's about all I have the time and energy for these days, anyway! In case you're wondering about the news we've been dealing with, I talked about that here.


Ya'll keep in touch! I truly hope things even out for the best very soon.

July 18, 2015

news.

I've had a feeling for a few months that everything about life as we know it is about to change. This week, we're simmering in the news that will likely deliver that change. The evidence we've been given points to "All The Things Are About To Get Real" and it's not good news.



Nevertheless, my Lord Jesus is above it all. I don't see how anyone makes it through life without the Living Hope! I'm leaning into my Savior's arms now- deeply, abandoned. I need him in every part of me.

Sometimes, circumstances feel desperate. In this life, there is trouble on top of trouble. If you don't grasp the concept that we are only visitors on this earth- given possession of a temporary body containing a permanent, eternal soul- goodness, the pain of life will overwhelm you.

Friends, don't be concerned about me. Rest assured, I am fine and healthy and strong- however, I'm going to need to stay that way. I need to be strong for everyone around me. I'm not ready to share everything, but I'm sure I will in time. Meanwhile, you can find me on Instagram, and perhaps Twitter. I'll be around. (XOXO) 

July 13, 2015

gathering dust.

I've almost stopped using my DSLR camera altogether. Lately, all my pictures have been captured with my iPhone 5, and I don't even take many pictures that way at all! Not in relation to the amount of pictures I was taking two and three years ago, anyway.

In some ways, I'm frightened that I'll later regret not having as many pictures of this era in our lives. On the other hand, I do feel like I am more fully experiencing life right now- I'm more engaged with the moments happening around me, rather than interacting with them as an observer.

On average, I get my DSLR camera out about once a month. It needs to be sent off for repair, actually- something is wonky with the light sensor, and I have to make educated guesses to choose settings for correct exposure (which must be done manually 100% of the time- whatever is wrong has caused the preset/priority modes to malfunction as well). We just don't have money in the budget for camera repairs. So the "big girl camera" is gathering dust on a shelf in our bedroom at the moment!

The boys and I headed outside to play one day recently, and I decided to take to opportunity to get a few pictures of them together. I found these matching t-shirts for them this spring, and they were still hanging in the closet with tags on! Shameful, I know. But, here you go- a picture of them looking like they actually like each other! And then playing in the dirt instead of looking at the camera. And finally, we spent the rest of our time outside playing on the tire swing, because that's just what we do.

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(I promise Hawk doesn't always look so worried, haha!)

I feel like my camera skills are getting rusty but I can't be too upset about this kind of thing. Life is full to the hilt, and I'm trying to soak it all it. I spend far too much time absorbed in trying to control details instead of enjoying the big picture, do you know what I'm saying?! I think maybe I needed my camera to break so I could realize this.

I have so much to say, but the little ones are awake and I'm typing with one hand now. Eric is working double shifts every day this week and Hawk has decided now is a good time to quit napping. My editorial plan for the blog is about two weeks behind now, and I haven't had a moment for checking my social feeds lately. That's making this more of a one-sided conversation than I want it to be, but I can't change it. I'm stretched in every direction, but confident this too shall pass! Happy Monday- here's hoping you all have a fantastic week!

July 10, 2015

july bookshelf.

This week has been fantastically busy, and I'm looking forward to staying at home all day today. I don't even plan on getting out of my pajamas. Bring it on, Friday!

We started the week with Summer Blast, our church's version of Vacation Bible School. Seth had an amazing time! But we lived off Pop Tarts and fast food for three days, and now I'm feeling the effects. Totally worth it.

Yesterday, we spent the afternoon visiting with friends, and then we headed to the library to refresh our summer reading stack. If I told you how much time I spend reading to the kids each day, you probably wouldn't believe me! As much as I want to dive into brand new book for myself this weekend, it's so awesome to see my boys fall in love with reading. The way I see it, I'm sacrificing this time now so I can catch up on all the reading I want to do later, once the boys are reading independently.

The audiobook has become my new best friend. I still have mixed feelings about audiobooks- they will never be the same as sitting down with a book and seeing the written words. But I decided to let go of the pressure to be totally puritanical about the differences between listening and reading a book- I'll never get all the way through the long list of books I long to read, anyway. I love being able to press play and listen to a story while I go about all the other things I need to accomplish each day!

As an added bonus, Seth has decided he really likes audiobooks, too. He'd almost prefer listening to a book over watching television. Score one for the Mommy team! So, we've been listening to a lot of my old childhood favorites together. Thank goodness for our library, because it turns out audiobooks are ridiculously expensive! I've considered an Audible subscription, but I was disappointed to learn there's actually a monthly limit. Boo, hissss.......

So, here's what's been hanging out on our shelves lately:

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PAST: Love the Home You Have by Melissa Michaels
PRESENT: Finding Spiritual Whitespace by Bonnie Gray
AUDIO: The Arsonist by Sue Miller
FUTURE: The Storied Life of A.J. Fikry by Gabrielle Zevin
LITTLE KID: Brown Bear, Brown Bear, What Do You See? by Bill Martin, Jr.
BIG KID: James and the Giant Peach by Roald Dahl

What have you been reading lately?

July 6, 2015

gratitude | v. 10

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The truth is, new furniture or a better house will never really satisfy- they will just set new, higher standards for what is acceptable to us for our comfort and contentment. When you take care of what you have and find joy right where you are, you set the right tone and expectations for contentment in all circumstances moving forward. (From Love the Home You Have by Melissa Michaels)
  • This song, on repeat. I've been deep in all the feels, and knowing true freedom is the one thing keeping my head over water.
  • Morning coffee on the couch in our library room, watching the sun move over the tree outside the window.
  • Nobody lost a finger playing with bottle rockets over the weekend.
  • Today is the first day of Summer Blast, which is like VBS on steroids! This is the first year Seth is old enough to attend, and he's beyond pumped up. And I'm planning coffee dates with my gal pals for the next few days!
  • I finally found the best homemade biscuit recipe. I've only been searching for years!
  • We're in a brand new sermon series at church called "Dream Again", and I feel like God intended the message just for me.
  • Yummy squash, straight from the garden.
  • This summer has been unseasonably bearable. By this, I mean that I don't feel like I'm swimming in soup every time I go outside. I realize August has yet to arrive, but for now I'm enjoying the nice weather!
  • Kids rolling in the grass.


What has been your favorite thing about summer so far?

July 5, 2015

independence day.

We didn't party too hardy for the Fourth this year: just a little laid back backyard fun with our family. There wasn't much poolside fun because it poured buckets (3+ inches of rainfall before 8:30 a.m., blasting the 120-year-old record rainfall for our area) and the air was unseasonably cool. I won't say we didn't try. It was just too cold! There was watermelon and hamburgers for the having, and some firecrackers and bottle rockets. Hawk hid his face in our shoulders all evening. I don't think he liked all the explosions. Seth had more fun catching frogs than anything else.

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That was our holiday. Nothing elaborate. Just humble, thankful, quiet... and a little muddy. Just the way I like it! How did you celebrate the Fourth?
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