There's something liberating about the knowledge that very few people will be reading Hello Hive now that I've allowed the custom domain address expire. I need the added space to process some of the things that God is working in me. It's so much easier to- well, be myself, when I'm truly just writing for myself.
It was true when I said that I felt like blogging again. I still do. What's surprising is how easy it is to slide into a mode where this thing I enjoy so much turns into a burden because I'm doing it to please other people.
(By the way, goodness- all the comments from Disqus are gone, too?! I bet that could be easily remedied. But I'm considering leaving that as it is. It suits the peace and quiet that I'm going for. Why don't I just turn off all comments going forward, while I'm at it? Gee whiz.)
I'm chewing on some ideas for a totally rebranded site. Back in May, I had hinted that the original idea for Hello Hive wasn't really fitting with my real life. But I don't want to rush into a change, especially if it will keep me from actually writing. Which is the real point, anyway- isn't it?
I'd love to hash out some of my ideas for a new blog direction, and I will a little bit at a time. But for now, I just want to write and process and think about the real reasons why I'm addicted to blogging.
I know it's not because I want to be internet famous. The more I think about it, the more I am really uncomfortable with the idea of being known by so many people. I'm an introvert, through and through. Maybe this aversion to being known is the reason I have a stop-start love-hate relationship with social media anyway!?
Therefore, going forward, I want to just write what's really on my heart. In so doing, maybe I can find my true self and figure out what God wants me to be doing with my time. My identity is in HIM ALONE, and no brand that I can create to hide myself in. This should be a fun practice. Consider this post the first of many voice lessons to come!